2004-10-02 - 11:53 p.m.
After talkin to my mom for 2.5 hours (from 1:20am to 3:50 or so), my fears were abated. i have no idea what my deal was... i just had this terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. as you can tell, i am still alive. so are my parents. and my friends. and pets. so... i guess it was nothing. however, i am still aware of my surroundings... the feeling hasn't completely gone away, yet.
today is my best friend's birthday. and another friend too... they're both 21. i am mad at another friend because she has treated me like a bitch all evening... using my age against me... i am a DD tonight... just waiting for my phone call. i hope they don't call too soon... i have laundry to get dried before i go get them. i think i am spending the night elsewhere... to take care of my drunk friends. oh, how i wish i was 21.
so... i'm waiting.. and doing some much needed laundry. watching some tv, too... eating some snackies... whatever.
alright... i'm going to go...
