2005-11-08 - 11:39 a.m.
sometimes i just feel like I consider someone to be my best friend... and they don't reciprocate my feelings. that hurts. maybe i should stop trying.
will write more later. EDIT So its officially later in the day. I totally forgot it was Tuesday, meaning I have my internship. I realized this at 2pm, when I was supposed to be at my internship at 1pm. I called Velvet and she didn't seem to care too much. LOL. I do miss having our chats while I'm there. She is awesome! I am chatting on MSN with my Chilean sister, Rode. I miss my family! I haven't been a good "hermana" lately, because I haven't had time to send them cards and stuff for their birthdays! I feel badly, but I will definitely be sending something for Christmas. In relation to my previous post, I really feel that I get the shaft in some friendships. LIke, I really feel that someone in particular is my best friend, has been for quite a few years... but it never seems that way in retrospect. This person and I are friends, yes... but defnitely not to the level I once thought. I feel they have replaced me with a less-than-good friend... whom they do not know the *TRUE* person. But hopefully will within the next semester of college. I don't know. Maybe I'm just overexaggerating the situation. I certainly have my trepidations about this person, who is my friend, too. My mom and I have had chats. We both feel there is no need to start a huge controversial fight at this point in life. I mean, we're all going to be moving away from one another, so that will help tremendously. I just pray this person realizes the true nature of the other person before anything escalates and causes more problems than need be. I should really continue studying for my GRE test... November 22. YIKES!
